Learning to Scale
Yesterday was my first voice lesson in over six years.
Voice Teacher: Tell me, why the MBA and not a M.Music?
Me: I wanted to learn how to scale*.
Voice Teacher: Well, I can teach you that! We'll get your voice back up to high-C.
I am often asked, " Why did you stop singing?" And until recently, I didn't know quite how to respond.
Flashback circa 2008: I wouldn't characterize this time as the happiest in my life. It was in fact a rather tumultuous time. I had just dropped out of Georgetown's post-bacc pre-med program, just finalized a divorce, was working at a Starbucks drive-thru and teaching voice lessons on the side while trying to figure out what the hell I was going to do next. (Sorry Fuqua admissions and recruiters to disappoint, I think I forgot to put Starbucks on my resume...) To use the expression "sing your heart out," my heart at the time just could not sing.
Some of my college friends have continued pursuing music-- Lisa Cernadads, Emily Fultz, and Aaron Require to name a few--who inspire me with their boldness and passion to stay true to the arts. Meanwhile, as I am squarishly closer to becoming a consultant, I sometimes wonder what my life would have been like had I not lost my faith in singing, had I not listened to my last voice coach who told me my voice was too "immature," or if I had not listened to my ex who told me that I was a fool to think that I could make it, or if I had not listened to my own fears that whispered, "you're just not talented enough."
But I rarely spend much time dwelling on those questions these days because 1) regretting is silly and 2) who says I can't do both? My new response to "Why did you stop singing?" is:
"I still sing, singing my heart out that I am truly blessed with good health and beautiful people in my life, and that I get to pursue an MBA in Milan to learn how to scale*."
Thank you dear friends who have encouraged me to start singing again.
Gi, Sami, Meesh, Emily, and Dr. Pscyh.
*for my non b-school friends, "to scale" is to grow a business, for my non music friends, "to scale" is move through a series of notes. yeah yeah, I never claimed to be a literary genius, which is why you literary snobs will poo-poo me for having to explain a double-entendre
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